The Bible was written by more than 40 authors. The author came from different backgrounds: Fisherman, Kings, Shepherds, tax collectors, scholars and more. It was written over a span of 1500 years. The authors wrote the Bible in different places such as in the wilderness, the prisons, Islands and while travelling. Even though the Bible was written by more than 40 authors over a span of 1500 years, they do not contradict with each other.This was because God's spirit was in control, guiding the first storytellers and guiding the person who wrote them down later. That same spirit also guides us and helped us understand when we read the Bible.
---by Gogou singsit (Senior group, Kws(delhi), sunday school dept.)
Saturday, December 18, 2010
A walk through the Clouds...
Window seat or aisle? The answer to this question is very easy for many people like me who adores the entranching view from the plane. Though, I haven't been lucky enough to be one to make such choices all the time.On the 11th of december, in a flight from Hyderabad to New Delhi, I finally got the seat next to the window. The view, of course is only interesting, few minutes before touchdown.For most of the time, I could only see a vast expanse of clouds in the high altitude. The leisure time made me think things that I heard and read before. I looked down trying my best to see as much as possible with the naked eye despite the fact that I am myopic. (I had forgotten to take out my spectacles) I remembered the Bible narrations on how God looked down upon His creations from above and wondered, would it have felt the same way. But we also know Him as the omnipotent, omniscient and omnipresent God. Now, that does make His localisation very confusing. The mode of His existence and the fashion He choose to communicate to His creations is also perplexing. In the garden of eden God communicate directly with Adam and walk with him. The mode of communication became more complex and abstract as time goes by.The scripture tells us that He was with the israelites under Moses as a pillar of cloud by day and as fire by night and the Psalmist tells us that God maketh the cloud His Chariot. We also read about so many instances when God actually uses the cloud either to speak through it or to actually sit on it. In the book of Revelation, John saw a white cloud, and upon the cloud one sat like unto the Son of man, having on his head a golden crown and a sharp sickle in his hand. He spoke to Moses through the burning bush, through miracles to pharaoh, through trials and pains to Job, through Angels to Mary and Gideon and Prophets to speak to Kings.So, What does He use to speak to me today? Am I responding? It is beautiful,the way He has been working in my life though I am most undeserving of the blessings. I am fearful and doubtful. In the past months, God has been teaching me to let go of my anxieties about the futures and to explore new avenues that I had feared to trod. He gave me people I need to helped me overcome myself. He had answered my prayers in ways beyond my imagination. He has been faithful and had not forgotten my petitions and He delivers me. He gave me reasons to believe that He had be there for me in all my endeavours and I need not fear. He can turn the minds and hearts of people in my favour. It is beyond me to understand the works and minds of God, but I am comforted at the thought that as long as i walk with Him and as long as He is on my side, I am sheltered even if the whole world is against me...
Sunday, October 17, 2010
MOSES
From fugitive and failure to fearless leader
Ken Graydon
The story of Moses should give us great encouragement. This is a man who plumbs the very depths of despair and yet ascends the greatest heights in his dealings with ETERNAL, the kings and rulers of his time and the leadership of his nation.
Moses broke the rules and was dealt with but he had a unique relationship with ETERNAL which not only blessed him but enabled ETERNAL to lead His people to the covenant land.
Moses was a Levite from the family of Kohath, house of Amram [Exodus 6:18,20] and he was born during the Egyptian captivity at the time when male Hebrew children were to be killed at birth. Moses mother hid the child for three months until he could no longer be hidden and he was put into an ark of bulrushes, made waterproof by daubing it with bitumen and launched into the Nile.
Moses sister, Miriam, kept watch until an Egyptian princess [probably Bithiah, see 1 Chronicles 4:18]
rescued the child and then Miriam was able to offer to bring a Hebrew nurse to care for him. Moses was subsequently adopted by the princess into the ruling family of Egypt.
At this time Egypt was the most sophisticated culture in the region and Moses received an education to equip him for leadership of this people. We can see here how ETERNAL puts experiences into a life to equip that life for His later service. Moses learnt about the administration of justice, religious ritual, symbolism, literature, warfare, civil administration and wisdom.
However, Moses cannot escape the call of ETERNAL on his life. Moses sees an Egyptian overseer abusing a Hebrew and strikes the Egyptian, killing him. Moses hides the body. Soon after this Moses tries to stop an argument between two Hebrews and is appalled when one of them says to him, “are you going to kill me as you killed the Egyptian?” When Moses hears that Pharaoh is searching for him to execute him for killing the overseer he runs away to the land of Midian. So Moses has cast off his adopted Egyptian family and become a lone Hebrew in a strange land.
On his arrival in Midian, Moses helps the daughters of Jethro to water their flocks of sheep. This helpful act leads Moses to be introduced to Jethro who is a priest. The Midianites were descended from Abraham by his wife Keturah but their worship did not follow Abraham regarding circumcision as we shall see. Moses marries Zipporah [Exodus 2:21] who gave him two sons, Gershom and Eliezer. Moses spent forty years as a shepherd with the Midianites. This is another ETERNAL directed time of preparation as Moses learns about desert life, its people, languages, roads and resources. Moses is also, perhaps unknown to him, learning to have a relationship with ETERNAL.
Moses sees a bush burning in the desert but the bush is not consumed. As he goes to have a closer look at this unique event Moses meets ETERNAL. [Exodus 3:1 to 4:19]. ETERNAL wants Moses to bring the Hebrews out of slavery in Egypt to bring them to the covenant land. Moses tries every argument he can think of not to do this. ETERNAL modifies the plan to allow Aaron to be the spokesperson. Then ETERNAL reveals that although Moses has been gone for forty years, probably with no contact because he was a wanted man, Aaron has already started on a journey to meet him. This is no simple act – just a short walk, forty years later, just in case I bump into my brother – this is absolute obedience.
On the journey toward Egypt, at a night camp, ETERNAL punishes Moses for his lack of obedience in not circumcising his son. This lack of obedience means that Moses is not ready for the task ETERNAL has given him. Zipporah circumcises the boy and by this act saves Moses’ life. [Exodus 4:24-26]
Moses and Aaron repeatedly call on Pharaoh to release the Hebrews and each rejection brings upon Egypt the ten plagues in succession. After the final plague, the death of the firstborn, the Egyptians demand that the Hebrews leave. We then have another example of the forward planning of ETERNAL. He instructs the Hebrews to borrow valuables and a whole range of goods from the Egyptians knowing that the people borrowed from would die in the Reed Sea – there would be no-one to pay it back to. These materials would be used in the construction of the Tent of Meeting and would not otherwise be available in the wilderness.
At Sinai Moses is allowed into a deeper relationship with ETERNAL. All the people heard the voice of ETERNAL but Moses met with Him ‘face to face’ and spent two periods of forty days with ETERNAL. Moses stood between ETERNAL and the Hebrews at times when ETERNAL wanted to punish them for repeated disobedience.
Moses would meet with ETERNAL at the Tent of Meeting and a cloud would come down as the presence of ETERNAL manifested there.
During the second year of the exodus Moses married a Cushite woman. When Aaron and Miriam, who considered themselves as part of the management team, spoke out against Moses, Miriam was promptly dealt with by ETERNAL and it was only the immediate intervention of Moses that caused ETERNAL to relent and Miriam was saved from leprosy. Other challenges to Moses leadership were disposed of by ETERNAL with dramatic results [Numbers 12].
Moses and Aaron made a foolish mistake at Kadesh [Numbers 20]. The people had no water – and as they usually did they complained and looked to Moses to put the situation right. ETERNAL told Moses what to say but Moses and Aaron acting as if it was their ability struck the rock with the fateful words “Listen, you rebels, shall we get water for you out of this rock?” This usurping of ETERNAL’s power brought about Aaron’s replacement as priest and his death. Moses was banned from going on to the covenant land.
Moses would lead the people to the very borders of the covenant land where he could see it but he had to put his house in order and pass on the leadership to Joshua whose obedience qualified him to be the leader of the people.
The story of Moses gives us comfort and inspiration. Throughout his life ETERNAL was making preparations for the next step of the journey. Moses made mistakes, as we all do, but he acted to make things right and we do not hear of him repeating mistakes. He went from runaway fugitive to leader of his people. Moses met with ETERNAL as a friend and although Moses thought he was not good enough, or talented enough, or experienced enough to serve ETERNAL he was generally obedient and other people were blessed because of him.
We need to look at our lives to see what steps of preparation ETERNAL has been quietly putting in place so that He can put in place our “burning bush” experience.
kennygee@bigpond.com
Ken Graydon
The story of Moses should give us great encouragement. This is a man who plumbs the very depths of despair and yet ascends the greatest heights in his dealings with ETERNAL, the kings and rulers of his time and the leadership of his nation.
Moses broke the rules and was dealt with but he had a unique relationship with ETERNAL which not only blessed him but enabled ETERNAL to lead His people to the covenant land.
Moses was a Levite from the family of Kohath, house of Amram [Exodus 6:18,20] and he was born during the Egyptian captivity at the time when male Hebrew children were to be killed at birth. Moses mother hid the child for three months until he could no longer be hidden and he was put into an ark of bulrushes, made waterproof by daubing it with bitumen and launched into the Nile.
Moses sister, Miriam, kept watch until an Egyptian princess [probably Bithiah, see 1 Chronicles 4:18]
rescued the child and then Miriam was able to offer to bring a Hebrew nurse to care for him. Moses was subsequently adopted by the princess into the ruling family of Egypt.
At this time Egypt was the most sophisticated culture in the region and Moses received an education to equip him for leadership of this people. We can see here how ETERNAL puts experiences into a life to equip that life for His later service. Moses learnt about the administration of justice, religious ritual, symbolism, literature, warfare, civil administration and wisdom.
However, Moses cannot escape the call of ETERNAL on his life. Moses sees an Egyptian overseer abusing a Hebrew and strikes the Egyptian, killing him. Moses hides the body. Soon after this Moses tries to stop an argument between two Hebrews and is appalled when one of them says to him, “are you going to kill me as you killed the Egyptian?” When Moses hears that Pharaoh is searching for him to execute him for killing the overseer he runs away to the land of Midian. So Moses has cast off his adopted Egyptian family and become a lone Hebrew in a strange land.
On his arrival in Midian, Moses helps the daughters of Jethro to water their flocks of sheep. This helpful act leads Moses to be introduced to Jethro who is a priest. The Midianites were descended from Abraham by his wife Keturah but their worship did not follow Abraham regarding circumcision as we shall see. Moses marries Zipporah [Exodus 2:21] who gave him two sons, Gershom and Eliezer. Moses spent forty years as a shepherd with the Midianites. This is another ETERNAL directed time of preparation as Moses learns about desert life, its people, languages, roads and resources. Moses is also, perhaps unknown to him, learning to have a relationship with ETERNAL.
Moses sees a bush burning in the desert but the bush is not consumed. As he goes to have a closer look at this unique event Moses meets ETERNAL. [Exodus 3:1 to 4:19]. ETERNAL wants Moses to bring the Hebrews out of slavery in Egypt to bring them to the covenant land. Moses tries every argument he can think of not to do this. ETERNAL modifies the plan to allow Aaron to be the spokesperson. Then ETERNAL reveals that although Moses has been gone for forty years, probably with no contact because he was a wanted man, Aaron has already started on a journey to meet him. This is no simple act – just a short walk, forty years later, just in case I bump into my brother – this is absolute obedience.
On the journey toward Egypt, at a night camp, ETERNAL punishes Moses for his lack of obedience in not circumcising his son. This lack of obedience means that Moses is not ready for the task ETERNAL has given him. Zipporah circumcises the boy and by this act saves Moses’ life. [Exodus 4:24-26]
Moses and Aaron repeatedly call on Pharaoh to release the Hebrews and each rejection brings upon Egypt the ten plagues in succession. After the final plague, the death of the firstborn, the Egyptians demand that the Hebrews leave. We then have another example of the forward planning of ETERNAL. He instructs the Hebrews to borrow valuables and a whole range of goods from the Egyptians knowing that the people borrowed from would die in the Reed Sea – there would be no-one to pay it back to. These materials would be used in the construction of the Tent of Meeting and would not otherwise be available in the wilderness.
At Sinai Moses is allowed into a deeper relationship with ETERNAL. All the people heard the voice of ETERNAL but Moses met with Him ‘face to face’ and spent two periods of forty days with ETERNAL. Moses stood between ETERNAL and the Hebrews at times when ETERNAL wanted to punish them for repeated disobedience.
Moses would meet with ETERNAL at the Tent of Meeting and a cloud would come down as the presence of ETERNAL manifested there.
During the second year of the exodus Moses married a Cushite woman. When Aaron and Miriam, who considered themselves as part of the management team, spoke out against Moses, Miriam was promptly dealt with by ETERNAL and it was only the immediate intervention of Moses that caused ETERNAL to relent and Miriam was saved from leprosy. Other challenges to Moses leadership were disposed of by ETERNAL with dramatic results [Numbers 12].
Moses and Aaron made a foolish mistake at Kadesh [Numbers 20]. The people had no water – and as they usually did they complained and looked to Moses to put the situation right. ETERNAL told Moses what to say but Moses and Aaron acting as if it was their ability struck the rock with the fateful words “Listen, you rebels, shall we get water for you out of this rock?” This usurping of ETERNAL’s power brought about Aaron’s replacement as priest and his death. Moses was banned from going on to the covenant land.
Moses would lead the people to the very borders of the covenant land where he could see it but he had to put his house in order and pass on the leadership to Joshua whose obedience qualified him to be the leader of the people.
The story of Moses gives us comfort and inspiration. Throughout his life ETERNAL was making preparations for the next step of the journey. Moses made mistakes, as we all do, but he acted to make things right and we do not hear of him repeating mistakes. He went from runaway fugitive to leader of his people. Moses met with ETERNAL as a friend and although Moses thought he was not good enough, or talented enough, or experienced enough to serve ETERNAL he was generally obedient and other people were blessed because of him.
We need to look at our lives to see what steps of preparation ETERNAL has been quietly putting in place so that He can put in place our “burning bush” experience.
kennygee@bigpond.com
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Let him be like thee!
Dear God! I prayed, all unafraid,
As girls we want to be.
I do not want a handsome man,
But let him be like thee.
I do not need one big and strong
Nor one so very tall,
Nor need he be some genius,
Or wealthy…Lord at all.
But let his hand be high,
Dear Lord, and let his eyes be clear,
His shoulders straight, whatever his state,
Whatever his earthly sphere.
And let his face have character,
A ruggedness of soul,
And let his whole life show, Dear Lord,
A singleness of goal.
And when he cometh, as he'll come,
With quiet eyes aglow,
I'll understand that he’s the man,
I prayed for long ago!
As girls we want to be.
I do not want a handsome man,
But let him be like thee.
I do not need one big and strong
Nor one so very tall,
Nor need he be some genius,
Or wealthy…Lord at all.
But let his hand be high,
Dear Lord, and let his eyes be clear,
His shoulders straight, whatever his state,
Whatever his earthly sphere.
And let his face have character,
A ruggedness of soul,
And let his whole life show, Dear Lord,
A singleness of goal.
And when he cometh, as he'll come,
With quiet eyes aglow,
I'll understand that he’s the man,
I prayed for long ago!
Friday, October 1, 2010
Need Direction From God?
By Rebekah Montgomery
Show me Your ways, O Lord; teach me Your paths.
Psalm 25:4
I do not see too well after dark. However, when it is both dark AND rainy, if you see me coming in a car, jump for the curb!
Consequently, when I had to pick up my son in an unfamiliar town at night during a thunderstorm, I was doing some serious praying: “Lord, You are going to have to show me the house. You’re going to have to point right to it.”
Following written directions, I drove right to the place. Pulling up beside the house, a bolt of lightning lit the sky and a finger of light pointed directly at the house. (God has such a sense of humor!)
But the house didn’t look ‘right’ to me. I had been there one before — in daylight — and outside the backdoor there should have been a huge dog in a kennel and an apple tree. I couldn’t see either one of these.
But like I say, I don’t see too well after dark.
So I drove around the neighborhood, praying, “Lord, You’re going to have to show me the house.” Frequently, I came back to this same house. Each time, I told God, “No, You’re wrong. It doesn’t look right.”
Finally, I stopped at a service station and called for my son’s friends to come get me. As it turned out, I was only a block away from their house, and you guess it: Theirs was the house to which God kept bringing me back. And the dog and apple tree were there — in the shadows.
How often we pray for guidance only to tell God, “No, that’s not the right way.” How often we pray for direction only to argue with God about the path He places us on.
We do not see too well into the darkness of the future. But the night is like day to Him. He knows the path we should take.
Today: Ask God for guidance for a particularly dark area of your life, and then begin listening for Him to speak and looking to Him for guidance.
©Rebekah Montgomery 2010
Show me Your ways, O Lord; teach me Your paths.
Psalm 25:4
I do not see too well after dark. However, when it is both dark AND rainy, if you see me coming in a car, jump for the curb!
Consequently, when I had to pick up my son in an unfamiliar town at night during a thunderstorm, I was doing some serious praying: “Lord, You are going to have to show me the house. You’re going to have to point right to it.”
Following written directions, I drove right to the place. Pulling up beside the house, a bolt of lightning lit the sky and a finger of light pointed directly at the house. (God has such a sense of humor!)
But the house didn’t look ‘right’ to me. I had been there one before — in daylight — and outside the backdoor there should have been a huge dog in a kennel and an apple tree. I couldn’t see either one of these.
But like I say, I don’t see too well after dark.
So I drove around the neighborhood, praying, “Lord, You’re going to have to show me the house.” Frequently, I came back to this same house. Each time, I told God, “No, You’re wrong. It doesn’t look right.”
Finally, I stopped at a service station and called for my son’s friends to come get me. As it turned out, I was only a block away from their house, and you guess it: Theirs was the house to which God kept bringing me back. And the dog and apple tree were there — in the shadows.
How often we pray for guidance only to tell God, “No, that’s not the right way.” How often we pray for direction only to argue with God about the path He places us on.
We do not see too well into the darkness of the future. But the night is like day to Him. He knows the path we should take.
Today: Ask God for guidance for a particularly dark area of your life, and then begin listening for Him to speak and looking to Him for guidance.
©Rebekah Montgomery 2010
What is the best way I can make sure my life has purpose and meaning?
I've been told that a famous Colorado sculptor was getting ready for a New York art show and had gathered and crated his work outside his mountain home. But before the helicopter arrived to pick it up, the Four Mile fire, just above Boulder, swept through his mountain property. The heat was so intense it melted his beautiful bronze sculptures. In a single moment, his life's work had vanished. His monuments to his tremendous talent, ruined.
So what makes a life have purpose and meaning? Is it crafting works of art, writing books, or filling your bank account with cash?
These things aren't necessarily wrong, but they will not bring you the purpose and meaning you are searching for. The only things that can do that is walking closely with God.
When we walk closely with God, we will experience his love and joy and we can, in turn, pour his love and joy into our friends, family colleagues and neighbors.
When we do that, we will have left an eternal mark in the world. We will have lived a life of purpose and meaning.
Here's a prayer you can pray:
Dear Lord,
Thank you for forgiving my sins. Teach me to walk closely with you. Help me to stop striving with the details of my life, and to start trusting you. Teach me to love you with my whole heart and to love those you have put into my life.
Help me to live my life - with joy and as I do, may my life make a difference for eternity.
In Jesus Name,
Amen
So what makes a life have purpose and meaning? Is it crafting works of art, writing books, or filling your bank account with cash?
These things aren't necessarily wrong, but they will not bring you the purpose and meaning you are searching for. The only things that can do that is walking closely with God.
When we walk closely with God, we will experience his love and joy and we can, in turn, pour his love and joy into our friends, family colleagues and neighbors.
When we do that, we will have left an eternal mark in the world. We will have lived a life of purpose and meaning.
Here's a prayer you can pray:
Dear Lord,
Thank you for forgiving my sins. Teach me to walk closely with you. Help me to stop striving with the details of my life, and to start trusting you. Teach me to love you with my whole heart and to love those you have put into my life.
Help me to live my life - with joy and as I do, may my life make a difference for eternity.
In Jesus Name,
Amen
Friday, July 16, 2010
My File Story...
When I first decided on creating this blog, I had told my dear friend Lhingboi that it would be a space to fill with incidents and reflections of my life-a memorabilia of sort. As one gets busy with trying to create an impact in one's life-world, to the significant 'other',and to try and prove that one is a favorite of fate, we tend to forget the Divine Hands that still determines the courses of our history-yesterday, today and tomorrow. The truth about life is, as I was made to realize anew today is that...everything begins and ends with Him.
Talks about PhD being a process of "partial/permanent head damage" seems to be slowly being proved true for those of us (Me, Sanji, Shruti and Lienza)who are in the final stage. My mom would continually caution me to take extra care, less I get effected mentally. It's her own way of telling me that she would still prefer me to the degree. Of course, it did not help in reducing the stress and tension I feel, but I appreciate her effort.
Today, as I was preparing to fill the 9b form, I suddenly realize that my file containing all my original documents were missing. Lately, my memory has been acting funny--lost keys, forgotten dates of events (much to the dismay of my friends...i am grateful to all my friends for not disqualifying me), lost purse etc. I search and search all over my room, every possible nook and corner but could not find it. I tried retracing my activities--when I was out with this file for the last time. I remember filling up forms and going to the bank, stationery and post-office with it that day. Perhaps, it never got back that day (I thought!)So, frantic search for the missing file begins. All the places I'd mentioned politely denied (some of them a little irritated at my accusation)to having them. I also went to the xerox centers I frequented, my sister's place and the two rooms in sabarmati hostel that i visited most regularly, viz, Sanji's and Kaya's. All the search proved futile. I kept praying in my heart, still hopeful it would be there some place.I even asked our hostel cook who bought my old newspapers.
Becoming more pessimistic by now, I started thinking of the grim possibilities of it being lost forever. I shudder at the though of it.I could even hear my mother scolding me for my carelessness. The alternative was as distressing. I had to apply for a duplicate copy in all the places that I'd studied from the tenth standard to my PhD, Manipur, Shillong and Delhi respectively. All my years of toils seemed to go down the drain. The certificates that I'd painstakingly achieved over the years could never be replaced. All my handwork and past blessings was reduced to zero.Slowly, the truth got a grip of me. I started crying, and then did what I do best when I am stressed, update my facebook status and then sleep. When I woke up I started my search again. My siblings--Ronald, Boisi and cousin Lambu joined the search. Finally, my heart which has been hardened by lack of time with God and meditation started melting. I then turned to God and prayed a worried prayer, telling Him not to let my fears be prove true. I said to God, "I know you are trying to tell me to re-adjust my priorities because I have been keeping my work before you, and also that everything is futile without you" (Proverb 16:1--the plans of the mind belongs to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord).
I then did another search inside my room, carefully cleaning everything in the process so that I would not missed out on anything. I cleaned my cupboard again for the 8th time. This time I took apart the drawers. Lo and behold! there was my file crushed at the end in the space gap that I had never realize to have existed before. In fact,along with it were all the papers, money changes and paper bits that I had lost over the years. I thanked God and everyone who was in it with me.
I made it a point to write down my experience tonight before it becomes a forgotten joke or be reduced to an example of carelessness; to remind myself and others like me. It is important to be serious about your works and commitments, but not to the point of losing yourself in it, forgetting important things in life that also constitute the purpose of our existence. Nothing in life is worth it. I would not really agree with the writer of ecclesiastes that everything in life is 'meaningless.'
A friend of mine had asked me the philosophical yet realistic question, 'How can you best understand the purpose of a your existence?.' I'd never really personalize this question and got the chance to do it for the first time. I said this concept changes as you grow older. To a child, becoming adults is an attractive goal; because grown-ups seems to control the world. Life seems so much better for them, they can do what they like and not be scolded for it. They then grow up to the realization that life was not all good for the adult. The grass always appears to be greener on the other side and this theory continues to apply all the days of our lives.
The best place to learn the true purpose of life would be in the company of a dying person; what is can be still important for him at that point, what still matter to him and what he can still boast about achieving. Perhaps, it all boils down to appreciate life as it is and as it comes everyday, and best of all what is it that we can carry with us to eternity...
Talks about PhD being a process of "partial/permanent head damage" seems to be slowly being proved true for those of us (Me, Sanji, Shruti and Lienza)who are in the final stage. My mom would continually caution me to take extra care, less I get effected mentally. It's her own way of telling me that she would still prefer me to the degree. Of course, it did not help in reducing the stress and tension I feel, but I appreciate her effort.
Today, as I was preparing to fill the 9b form, I suddenly realize that my file containing all my original documents were missing. Lately, my memory has been acting funny--lost keys, forgotten dates of events (much to the dismay of my friends...i am grateful to all my friends for not disqualifying me), lost purse etc. I search and search all over my room, every possible nook and corner but could not find it. I tried retracing my activities--when I was out with this file for the last time. I remember filling up forms and going to the bank, stationery and post-office with it that day. Perhaps, it never got back that day (I thought!)So, frantic search for the missing file begins. All the places I'd mentioned politely denied (some of them a little irritated at my accusation)to having them. I also went to the xerox centers I frequented, my sister's place and the two rooms in sabarmati hostel that i visited most regularly, viz, Sanji's and Kaya's. All the search proved futile. I kept praying in my heart, still hopeful it would be there some place.I even asked our hostel cook who bought my old newspapers.
Becoming more pessimistic by now, I started thinking of the grim possibilities of it being lost forever. I shudder at the though of it.I could even hear my mother scolding me for my carelessness. The alternative was as distressing. I had to apply for a duplicate copy in all the places that I'd studied from the tenth standard to my PhD, Manipur, Shillong and Delhi respectively. All my years of toils seemed to go down the drain. The certificates that I'd painstakingly achieved over the years could never be replaced. All my handwork and past blessings was reduced to zero.Slowly, the truth got a grip of me. I started crying, and then did what I do best when I am stressed, update my facebook status and then sleep. When I woke up I started my search again. My siblings--Ronald, Boisi and cousin Lambu joined the search. Finally, my heart which has been hardened by lack of time with God and meditation started melting. I then turned to God and prayed a worried prayer, telling Him not to let my fears be prove true. I said to God, "I know you are trying to tell me to re-adjust my priorities because I have been keeping my work before you, and also that everything is futile without you" (Proverb 16:1--the plans of the mind belongs to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord).
I then did another search inside my room, carefully cleaning everything in the process so that I would not missed out on anything. I cleaned my cupboard again for the 8th time. This time I took apart the drawers. Lo and behold! there was my file crushed at the end in the space gap that I had never realize to have existed before. In fact,along with it were all the papers, money changes and paper bits that I had lost over the years. I thanked God and everyone who was in it with me.
I made it a point to write down my experience tonight before it becomes a forgotten joke or be reduced to an example of carelessness; to remind myself and others like me. It is important to be serious about your works and commitments, but not to the point of losing yourself in it, forgetting important things in life that also constitute the purpose of our existence. Nothing in life is worth it. I would not really agree with the writer of ecclesiastes that everything in life is 'meaningless.'
A friend of mine had asked me the philosophical yet realistic question, 'How can you best understand the purpose of a your existence?.' I'd never really personalize this question and got the chance to do it for the first time. I said this concept changes as you grow older. To a child, becoming adults is an attractive goal; because grown-ups seems to control the world. Life seems so much better for them, they can do what they like and not be scolded for it. They then grow up to the realization that life was not all good for the adult. The grass always appears to be greener on the other side and this theory continues to apply all the days of our lives.
The best place to learn the true purpose of life would be in the company of a dying person; what is can be still important for him at that point, what still matter to him and what he can still boast about achieving. Perhaps, it all boils down to appreciate life as it is and as it comes everyday, and best of all what is it that we can carry with us to eternity...
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